I still remember my feelings those first moments when the LORD spoke to my heart concerning Huntsville…the overwhelming sensation of seeing people in a dream and hearing HIM say, “These are the people waiting for you in Huntsville.” I was scared and excited at the same time – excited that GOD would entrust a vision to me, yet scared to be responsible for it! I shared with Leisa what I had seen, and Jesus used her immediately by saying, “We just got here in Jacksonville; we’re not going anywhere!” Even though I knew she was right, I was still thankful that GOD was communicating HIS heart for us.
This “scared excitement” seemed to define the journey Leisa and I were about to embark on. Every step required the embrace of that scared excitement of faith. From the first time we came to fast and pray in 1998, when we were on Monte Sano Mountain, asking GOD to let lightening strike if He had really called us here – and then it actually struck – to our first vision cast meeting with a handful of people in a living room of new friends, that “scared excitement” remained the same.
I remember lying on the floor of my office in Jacksonville, praying over a (borrowed) Huntsville phonebook, naming faceless people I had only seen in my dreams. The nights turned into endless conversations with Leisa reading to me from her dream journals about places we had never been and people we had not yet met. I remember the naming of a ministry – from a parking lot conversation. The Rock Family Worship Center came to life and the scared excitement of faith rooted deeper.
We carried the vision so deeply yet had no money to meet the need. Then overnight, two days before we were to head out, GOD provided and told us, “Everything you will ever need will be in the house when you need it.” I remember loading up trucks to the sound of little voices, and that “thing” in the pit of my stomach while we were driving to nothing, but expecting something. And then … that first service, the support of family and friends, the faces of people we had only seen in our dreams, and again, feeling that scared excitement of faith.